One of the struggles I’ve had in my spiritual transformation has been the question of how do I serve? I mean once you begin to understand the awesome nature and character of God, not only do you want to honor and praise His name, you also want to use the talents and gifts bestowed upon you as He would have you use them. For me, that became, and at times still is, a frightening undertaking; not because I lack the will, but more often than not, I tend to believe I’m just not worthy enough to actually carry out the Lord’s will. This is God we’re talking about.
To think I might be selected for a specific mission by God can move me to denial. In my case, denial can be a comforting place. I know that sounds terrible but the good news is that I’m in great biblical company. Humbly speaking, my reaction certainly isn’t as significant as those giants in the Bible who, when confronted directly with God’s intention to use them suffered from extreme denial…”you talking to me?” Now before anyone starts to quote the vast number of saints who heard the Word and simply said yes, I’m not talking about refusing to be obedient. I’m talking about those like Moses, who initially tried to talk God out of selecting him to carry out an obviously divine mission. When you think about it, what excuse can you use to try and get out of God using you?
A very close friend of mine sent me one of those chain e-mails that make their way around cyberspace. It captured pretty much what I oftentimes deal with in regards to being a reluctant player in God’s great plan. It said, “God doesn’t call the qualified. He qualifies the called.” The point in the end, after all is said and done, if God wants me to do something, I will. I mean it’s not like He’s going to take no for an answer. (See the Bible under Moses.) For me, even though I am constantly thinking that I should be doing more, I know I should be writing this column. I have been blessed with this platform and I must use it to spread my belief, my faith in the truth of the gospel. I couldn’t deny this fact any more than I could deny the truth of my ability to write. This is a public acknowledgement that this talent is indeed a blessing and that blessing comes directly from God.
The mystery of faith is no mystery to me. Christ died. Christ has risen. Christ will come again. He is my lord and savior. Let’s just say I know I’ve been called to tell that to anybody who reads this column. I hate to break it to you this way but you’ve been called too. Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, (and) who have been called according to his purpose. It clearly says His purpose, not mine. And I do love him. Therefore I am obligated and quite pleased and humbled to do so. Just remember your self designated purpose pales in comparison to God’s designated purpose for you. When in doubt, check out what you’re really good at and remember, it came from Him not you.
May God Bless and keep you always, James